So I’ve been quiet
Quiet enough to listen to my flaws,
To listen to my doubt,
To listen to my hunger,
Listen to it rumble throughout the silence,
Ever get that heart stopping,
Gut punch feeling like,
If this is it damn I ain’t do shit,
Do you love time enough not to waste it?
How far do you let a dream go before you chase it ?
Why stay tied to today’s social standards?
Who are you behind a twitter handle,
A instagram video,
Life can be over in a snap,
How often do you chat about that?
When do you break a cycle?
Stop living that live in your head,
& take some steps to get there,
All my goals are gold,
If I value it enough…
I’ve been so quiet,
Now when I speak you heard all I’ve learned,
You hear the levels of hunger in my voice,
My tone silences every whisper of doubt,
I been quiet too long.
My restlessness guided by my drive to change life in ways that may only exist as a dream. That’s usually how it starts right?…Anxious to create a future. Sixty seconds to me became as valuable as an hour. Echoing inside my head my grandfather “waste anything but time”. I caught myself thinking of the end as if I forgot death is guaranteed and to live is a choice. Once again I take my foot off the brakes and continue my drive. Cruising, knowing no matter which road I take towards my destination there are many others have tried to get to the same place…no matter if they took longer or made it quicker in the end they made it…as well as you will. Know when to stop for gas, watch for the ignorance of the road. Drivers that underestimate the importance of keeping your eyes on the road, one crash could leave you in the shop or worse. Always remember to keep your drive, you are your own brakes, you are your own gas. YOU ARE IN CONTROL….see you at the finish line.
You probably wondering where we go from here. Looking over the span of this past year, tired you are slightly. It takes a tough spirit to turn troubled times into progress. I’ve literally seen you travel to places you never been before. Lessons learned, homes for comfort you built completely destroyed. There was no other option other than a leap of faith or drown in doubt. “Should of left when the ink dries but you still write”. Push through hopelessness, keep moving during the moments everyone would understand why you quit. Continue reading “WordToSelf.”
You think about it all day,
You think of ways to change,
You think of ways to grow,
Spend your entire day thinking,
Until you think the day away.
You think it’s getting better,
You think you’re getting stronger,
You think you’ve found the solution,
You think that,
Until you think yourself into doubt,
Think yourself into fear,
Hey I think you’ve fell back to square one.
I think you should put thought into actions,
I think you should stand and take chances,
I think we shouldn’t over think,
I think you’d love your ideas when you see them come alive,
Thoughts are not meant to be coveted.
I think you should open up,
Before your door close.
Before I start, I just want to explain I may ramble a bit within this post. I have an idea, I really want to capture my true emotions about this election…in 4 years revisit my mind during this time. Letting reality set in realizing Trump will be president starting next year. Watching it, it almost didn’t seem real. Then I felt it perhaps the same feeling a white racist may have felt when Obama won. What Obama stood for, what his family represented, his message and the hope he manifested in people created a fear among white supremacy. Back then those same people thought war, an uprising of blacks, the failure of America, etc. Today it’s the reverse effect & although the cards look to be in Trumps hand, how many times have we as people predicted situations wrong ? Look at this election from the beginning the man we thought was least likely to win, won. Maybe I’m optimistic but the illusion of power is strong, ask yourself are you really in fear ? Or is it simply just lack of knowledge? Maybe we’re giving the future potus too much credit…yes even the blacks that believe the next four years will be hell. May we endure and continue the goal of unity when it’s believed to be headed in the worst direction since the 2000’s. Why not shock the world ? Or maybe my eyes are blinded by a rude awakening that’s about to happen? My heart believes in the people first, one man doesn’t control my next four years of life. One of my favorite personal line is when I said “no matter the potus I don’t have any hope”. I still stand by it, I wanted Hillary to build on the progress Obama made. While I agree she wasn’t the best, she wasn’t a rookie at this and the more respectable candidate. While I wanted Hillary to win, I didn’t expect major change but she had a foundation to build off of. To see a drastic change, it starts locally, laws need to change, etc. I don’t have all the answers Sway but it doesn’t start nor end with the president. Trump won’t accomplish all he set out to in 4 years, it’s a second term that would be more crushing. Trump’s great America is yet to be seen, but one thing Trump did already was MADE AMERICA HONEST AGAIN.